on desicion making

hey again…it’s been while.

Dude i gotta tell you this. Among weird things i always do, there are at least two stuff that never change. Its that i am aquite consistent flip-flopper and never ready enough to get over my childhood. Living a kind of life with those characteristics is kinda fun actually, not necessarily fit people well, but umm it’s great. I mean, just think about it. How many people who claim that they live their life seriously yet they screwed up eventually and got f**k up in their lives?

And by the way, it happened to be that i had to make a tough call today. The kind of desicion that could change the landscape of my freakin life for the next two years. You dont have to know believe me cuz you’ll know anyway somehow. At one point when making the call, i thought, dude Pat this is your major desicion making after a while. You have got to be more serious (as if it had been a voluntary acknowledgement that i had been such a kid).

But umm after a while i thought…you know…may be i dont have to be serious. I choose to keep thinking that this entire life is a trial and error. If i fucked up with this desicion,so what…i cant keep making a good call afterall can I?

In short,i hope that i could always make my desicion lightly, get on with life, (sometimes) screw up, pick up the pieces again…reshape, and keep laughing at my own mistakes.I dont even know if this is gonna work. Do you?